It's Over!!!!!!

The boards are over!!
For the next two months it's FREEDOM!
I know, the freedom is short lived, but like i always say, have fun while you can because it ain't gonna last forever. How long it has been since we have been free of taunts.
This is a very important year.

Are you going to try and get a 100%?

This is only the beginning.

You have to focus, everything depends on this.

I have got sick of thinking about marks, studies, exams, my future... On a brighter note, It's over!!! We all went out and had fun yesterday. It was alright. We were all just recovering from the realization that this year is over for us. It was all much ado about nothing, but we got through it. I don't want to say much before my marks come out, but yeah, i think i can say i got through it. I am a bit singed, but i made it, just like evryone else.
I have to think of my parents now. They were really there for me, both of them. Always holding me up, never intruding but ever supporting. It was so comforting to know that even if all the teachers will be dissapointed with me, there are two people in the world who will always think of their little girl and keep her head high.
My freinds too, were always around; with questions, answers, consolations, laughs, anything to keep me sane through the month, and through the year. I love them all, for understanding how heard this can be on us. My friends are the ones you can scream at one day and crack up with the next.
What a relief that its over. It feels like a cube of ice gliding over my body, despite the immense summer heat. My obstacles may have only begun surfacing, but getting over these tiny obstacles would help me leap over the bigger boulders i hope.

To my freinds
Rose, Joanna, Ria, Susan, Jaisal, Amit, Rissan, Sharika, Navneeth, Sam
And my Family,
Mamma, Papa, Abu, Amma, Shobha and Ammachi
And of course,
My teachers, even the ones who hate me.

Boards are here ......

The exams are here. The boards that everyone has been talking to me about this whole year has finally arrived, and i am overwhelmed by it. I am not doing anything as i planned to.
For one, i am sick of studying this whole year and cannot even think of studying anymore. and this i feel when it most counts.
the boards are scary. But they are not as bad as people make it to be. They are easier than any exam I've don't this year(so far) and i wonder why there was so much pressure on me in the first place. Now that the time has come to put in your very best, to focus, to get close to a 100% in at least one subject, I AM BEING A LAZY BUM.

what am i supposed to do today? i have 4 days for my English exam. the past 3 days, i learnt 4 chapters in science out of the 17 we have and 1 question paper in french. a feeble attempt. in the next 4 days, i plan to study English, bit by boring bit. in between all this studying, there is the Internet, there is the eating, the TV, the walking around aimlessly, there is all of this messing up, DURING THE MOST IMPORTANT MONTH OF MY TENTH.

have i gone crazy? have i dropped myself to a level where i am utterly not bothered with life? no. i care as much as i ever did to do well for these exams. but i am not doing my BEST. not that all my friends are......

all this studying in the end is useless. and that makes it even harder to commit to this.
oh well, i am an Indian student, and for us this is the only life. might as well put up a fake smile and get through it.