Spoke Too Soon

Look at the date. Friday the 13th. Great. The Last time I wrote, my life seemed perfect. Now it seems far from it. Have the stars not aligned right? Is it karma? Is it my fate? Ah, who knows. What has happened has, and now I will write about it. My way of dealing with emotion is that.
God, sometimes things get really out of hand. Yesterday was one of those really uneasy days. My first stomach-clenching experience was with the Principal of our school. She wanted to tell me something people had been noticing lately. Remember, this is Kerala. People need very little to talk, especially if it's about teen relationships. She wanted to tell me to be extremely careful what signs I give off in school, concerning my relationship with him. She wants me to stop being so close to him. She told me I must not give room for people to talk of me. I can hear their whispers in the corridor's, I see their knowing smiles. It is as if what I am doing, falling in love with the most amazing guy on earth, is the greatest sin.
she is the one walking around with that boy. What nerve she has to have a relationship with a senior! What is happening to our children? It's girls like these that we need less of.
they will not understand why I "walk around with that boy". These people don't believe in love, until you are married. They feel that a girl must love the boy her parents choose. Can she not choose the one who understands her most? NO. Especially not in school.
I love him. What they say will not change us. We will become stronger over their accusations.

Basketball is going rather pathetically at the moment. We scraped a win on Thursday and lost the finals of a local tournament yesterday. Our next tournament starts in a few days. God knows how we will do for that. Somehow, winning seems to be the last of my worries. Basketball at least keeps my mind off my problems for a while.

I need help. I have only him today. I need only him. I just hope that the world would leave us alone, to fall in love in peace. We just want to be ourselves.

Sense and Sensibility

Life is just great right now. It seems like everything around me is beautiful. I wonder what brought about the change. Oh wait, I know. Yeah, there's only one answer. Him. These days it seems like he's the only thing in my mind. The only person I want to talk about, the only one I want to be with.
M friends are all getting tired of hearing about him, but I don't care. He's the only thing that matters to me now. It's weird that something like this is even happening to me. But it feels great. It feels incredibly right.
I don't want to leave him. I want to hold him in my arms and stay there forever. I want to kiss his soft lips over and over again. I love him so much. I don't knew what else to say. It's all I think about. Our love, and it's amazing depth. I don't want to stop falling in love with him.
God, I pray to you to keep us safe.

So It Continues...

Last week was as good as the one before. Again, after school we both had practice for basketball, and music. Now having lunch together is becoming an everyday thing for us. I'm afraid I've gotten so used to being with him, that I won't be able to keep up if he doesn't stay back in school with me. Anyway, like last week, this one was also bittersweet. A lot of crap went on all around me. I fought with my friends, I cried, I got yelled at by my coach, I never finished my homework on time, etc, etc.
but as always, someone was there to get me through. Yeah, you guessed it, it was him. He was there all along to make every day better than I thought it was. So at the end of each day all I'd say was, "things could have been so much worse if he wasn't there."
His hug is the most comforting thing on the planet. For me, his arms are the safest place. If I am with him, I know nothing can go wrong. We will hold on, together. He is the one who gives me strength. He is the one who holds me close. He is the one who loves me exactly how i want to be loved. he is the only one i want to spend my life with.