What I Don't Say

Nymalu

What i said:
I love him and I'm sorry you don't get it. I will not talk about him anymore. I'm going to miss you and your laughs when you leave. You're so much fun. But it's us. We're still going to be friends. Best friends.

What i didn't say:
I wish you could somehow understand what i feel. Especially about him and about how he is good to me. I hope someday you will stand by me in this. Because you matter to me, and i want you to know me properly. But maybe you already do. I'm sorry i hurt you so many times. I can't bring myself to agree with you all the time. Sometimes i feel we are so opposite. Sometimes i feel we get each other into trouble.

Kiddo

What i said:
You're my best friend, i don't want to hurt you. But i can't love you like that. It's not a wall in my head. It's something i know will never work. It's because you can't see me happy with someone else. It's sometimes because you hate him, but that's OK. I want to be friends. i want you to be here for me. Please don't stay away.

What i didn't say:
You're just like me: insincere, selfish, preoccupied. We could never happen, don't you see? I'm losing my respect for you. I almost allowed myself to lower my defenses around you. To let you see a part of me i have not showed. But then you disappointed me again, and i have closed myself. No more intruders. I have never given you a chance, but that once when i did, it got wrecked. why try again?


Roselyn

What i said:
Man, i love him like hell, but things are just NOT working out. I mean I'm screwing it all up. But I'll stop now you must be bored. What else is new?

What I didn't say:
I just want to tell you everything, but yea you don't really care. And i forgive you, really. I just hope that I'm not just some other friend you made. that i matter to you. that you wont just walk away when school is over. because if you do, i might not forgive you anymore.