A Letter to the Parents

dear mama and papa,
i want to say something, but i don't quite know how to. i want to express this feeling i have but I'm so scared of what you would think.
I'm in love with him. i really am. its not some teenage thing. it's real. and i know for sure. and i can't be with him until you say it's OK. because there really is no point doing anything without your permission. and even if i wanted to defy you, he doesn't. and so it's only if you can understand what I'm going through that i can be happy.
i can't do without him. and i can't think of being with anyone else. i can't let him go and still i have to let him go. i cannot deal with this kind of separation, so please understand.
please say it's OK to fall in love, that it's OK to want another person like i do. please don't look at me like i am a sinner, that i can never be a good person until i leave him, because even though you don't know it, i can never be whole if i leave him.
why is it so hard for everyone to understand this? is it because we are young? is it because of the past? i can't change the past, and i can't guarantee that our youth is not blemished. we might seem stupid and naive to you, and maybe you are right. we have made mistakes, i have made too many to ask for forgiveness, but i am asking you anyway because i love you both and i want you to love me too, as everything i am.
i know acceptance will never come from you as long as I'm with him. that is why I'm too afraid to plead to you for real. i might just make things worse. he's leaving me, you know. he's going to go away in 4 months, and then it's going to be that all-too-often-used phrase 'just friends' between us. i know that would make you both happy, but please i can't do it that way.
all i ask is to love him...

dear uncle and auntie(i wish i could call you mom and dad)
apologies might not be what you want to hear right now, but i want to apologize anyway. I'm sorry i was the reason your son lied to you, that he was distracted, that he made mistakes because of me, that he disappointed you. I'm sorry we cannot get along, you both and me. i really would have loved to. i would love to have dinner with you, and get to know you and tell you about me. but then again, I'm in love with him so I'm in no position to ask to barge into your lives. please don't be angry with him. he is such a good person, all he does is care. and he's doing all this for you, because he loves you and because you come first. he's trying to compromise between being in love and being accepted, so don't be angry.
i know you care about him, maybe more than i do. and i know, though it hurts me that you are so right. and maybe someday, someday it would still work out. and if it doesn't maybe i can come over and have dinner anyway, just to make that dream come true.