Snuggling

You read right. Snuggling. It's pretty much the only word that is on my mind today. That and Amit.
Right now i'm thinking, wow. I'm really glad i fought with amit because now, i get the occasional hug from him. and somehow a hug from amit, somehow, SOMEHOW makes things alright. (don't ask how) and finally, i can think "amit really cares" without giving myself an "oh my god, you're kidding yourself". someone(vidya), or something(the fight), or some place(hyderabad) suddenly made amit comfortable with "snuggling" and well, hate to admit it, but i love it! for one, the only people i do that with is my family. (and NEM..earlier) and well, amit's always been family. but hehe, it's good to know that i can say "ok mister, i'm upset. let me listen to your heart beat." and he'd let me. wonderful.

for a skinny bony lanky guy, amit is ridiculously comfortable. but then, maybe comfort has nothing at all to do with the way your body is and has more to do with who you are( he's going to hate that i said that) and you know what? the fact that we were mean to each other for a decade or so(and will be mean to each other for the next few decades to come) makes this little island that we're on even more fabulous. making up for all that time lost and stuffing it into two days of snuggling and hand-holding and talking about smells and everything else that floats in our heads... (non-romantically, of course :P)

funny how it took us this long to be like this, but it was worth the wait. i might have wanted a big brother.. but this, this is a brother + (non-gay)best freind + irritating bumfart + personal diary and that is a preeeeety good trade off.

i love you amit. and wow. i'm finally not too shy to say it. hehe. *snuggle*