Life Sucks: part one

I'm not a pessimist. I've never been one. But my teenage life is turning in such unexpected ways that I can't help but plainly say that life sucks.
It's all karma I keep telling myself. You get what your give.
I think it all started with a dream. Now, I'm not someone who delves deep into the unexplained mysteries of life like dreams or astrology or psychic powers. But I saw a dream that I broke up with my boyfriend who I'd been with for about 1 and a half years.(Which by the way is a long-lasting relationship as far as we were concerned) We weren't going that great anyway and then to top it all off, my best friend goes and tells him that I was in love with another guy. (how considerate) He got angry, obviously and blindly believed what she said. I don't blame him. I would have done the same thing. But as usual when we have a fight, he doesn't confront me about it. It's just his nature. But by then I decided that I had got enough of all that. I just wanted to end it all. And so I did. I told him, "I think we should break up". And like any guy would do so as not to hurt his huge ego, he goes, "alright". That one word was all I needed to know I had made the right decision.
I loved him with my heart and soul, I did. I thought I could do anything if he was right next to me. I missed him if he was away for an hour. And I'm pretty sure he loved me too. We had so much fun together, and I got really close to him. But that was the past...
Now I see him, and though I knew this was exactly the way he would have reacted, I'm still overwhelmed by the person he has become to me. We are like strangers. He tells his friends I am a b***h and a s**T and hope I f*****G die. How is it that this was the same guy I was head over heels about? Well, I miss the old him. And the saddest thing is, he's only like that to me. Of course, I'm sure he has good reasons to hate me. After all I broke his heart by breaking up with him. But well, I'm still a bit surprised. I just hope maybe one day, the both of us will have enough patience and love left in us to talk this out. But I fear that day might never come.